scary stuff in Cuba

by fireball

OK, I know what everyone is going to say or think... I know that I deserve what I get... But here it is... this is my story....
I went to Cuba for a 3 month internship earlier this year. I'm married, have been for 4 years. Of course every marriage has difficulties, and mine, even before Cuba, were starting to become clear. Anyways. I am a 32 years old, but I look more like 20. I have been told many times that I am very attractive, and considering the type of attention I get, even at home, I've come to believe this :) Oh, and I am a lesbian.
Basically from the first day I was in Cuba (in a small agricultural town in central Cuba) I started to get attention from Cuban girls. There was no shortage of opportunities to be bad. But for a long time I was good. There was one girl, though, that I got along really well with and, because she worked where I was living, got to know quite well. Her name is Mari, she is 22 and she had a boyfriend, but even so, one night she confessed her attraction to me. I told her that I was attracted to her but that it was complicated (being married and all) trying to let her down easily. I guess she didn't get it though, and one night she kissed me. I had been in Cuba for some time now, was lonely and had a difficult marriage back home, and so I went for it. I kissed her back. We started carrying on behind her boyfriend?s back until one night the boyfriend came to the place that she worked, and I was living, and started accusing her of being unfaithful with another man. Maybe he had just caught on to our ?relationship? but at any rate, he started beating her up really bad right there, without discretion, right in front of me. I'm not sure if this is needless to say or not, but after a few punches and kicks I ran out to the security guard to get him to call the police. He couldn?t have cared less that a woman (who couldn't have been more than 5 foot tall) was being beaten up, and wouldn't call the police. So I went back into the residence and she was still being beaten up really bad and I started to confront the boyfriend. He told me to mind my own business and gave her a really hard kick to the stomach, and I lost it. I punched him out. Actually, I don't even remember punching him, I remember calking back, getting ready to punch him, I remember saying ?you son of a ---ch!? and then the next thing I remember is him punching me. Anyways, I know I punched him cuz I had his eye imprint on my fist for like, a week, and he had a big black eye?. So anyways back to the story. From that night on we were inseparable. And in love. Now, before anybody says anything, my wife came for a visit to Cuba and tried to get Mari to come back to our hotel room with both of us? my wife made it perfectly clear that she was attracted to Mari as well? but Mari didn't want that. According to her, she only wants me. You know, I read all this crazy stuff on this web site and can't help but wonder if my girl really loves me or if she is just looking for a way out. She's never asked me for anything, as a matter of fact, she used to take me out for pizza and buy it herself. I won't pretend like I didn't give her gifts or special treatment, I did. But she never asked me for anything. When I left, I gave her 200 CUC's, it was what was left over from the internship money and she kind of got mad at me for trying to give it to her. She looked hurt, and asked me if I was trying to pay for sex. Once I got it across to her that there is no way in hell I would ever pay for sex, and that I wanted her to have the money because she got fired from her job because of her stupid (EX-)boyfriend and because it is only her and her mom, she took it. I do send her small amounts of money from time to time. She's never asked me for it. I'm gonna try to get to the point now, because this is getting long. I don't expect her to be faithful, and I told her that, I mean, I'm 5000km away. She says that she is anyways, even though I don't expect it. I do want her to be honest though. But that, I guess I'll never know for sure. I get an email from her every morning. she gets up at 5.30 in the morning just to email me so that I have the email when I wake up. I'm still married, I'm trying to work out my differences with my wife. But I'm in love with Mari, and according to her, she's in love with me. What scares me is the sheer amount of people who say that all Cubans are liars, cheaters, and thiefs. Aie mi madre!! I guess I'll never know for sure? But I wish there was a way to find out.